Fuck getting along

At work everyone has their clique and seating arrangements. We all know who likes to sit in which desk though technically its first come. Each row has their own group dynamic. You try to save seats for who you want to spend the next 8 hrs sitting with. So when someone who doesn't normally sit in the row decides to saunter over and sit, the whole day is thrown off. Then someone from your row has to sit in someone elses row and that rows group is altered. God forbid we interact with other people at work. I personally am bad for this. I don't want to make small talk with other rows it's too much efffort. I don't even know their names..I know where they sit though.

I'm not sure if it's because there is a generation gap between day and evening.. The day shift is primarily older women. The working moms who talk about their kids, and gossip about whats going on. I decided I will never work day shift at my work place. I would go mad. I'm way to vocal and would get my ass kicked. However everyone is prone to be loyal to their shift. If I was forced on day shift I would suddenly find faults about midnight and afternoons i'm sure. I wasn't going anywhere with this, just pointing it out. I'd make some blaise comment about how we should work on getting along or getting to know the people you work with.... but wheres the fun in that...fuck getting along.

On another note, I worked the day shift one day and it reaked of perfume. Is there an age you reach that you decide you smell, feeling the need to throw loads and loads of scented oil or products on yourself? I walked from one end of the building to the other and my nose was accosted with 10 different potent perfumes. If you know the exact age please notify me so I can avoid this stage of my life...thanks

I'm an idiot

So I'm hearing all about Vegas from my mom today, telling me what a fabulous time she has and how she's looking forward to visiting grandma because she still has 2 weeks of holidays remaining..(Still I don't clue in) So glad everythings good, talking about how NEXT weekend will be the first time both her brothers and her were together in 20 years (still no clue). She wants me to give her her itinerary before I go out tonight (still not clicking). She comes to my room and is looking over my shoulder while I'm giving her the flight #'s I booked for her. I look at the date...July 29th *Click* I fuckin booked her a flight for TODAY....As in this morning and back monday.I thought she would be back this Tuesday, I never even realized that it was odd of her to be leaving again 3 days later. When she extended and said she'd be back yesterday I still didn't clue in that I booked them for this Friday. Fuck me in the goat ass. She's needless to say, pissed off. Fuck I don't blame her. Not only does she not get her money back for the flights I booked on the wrong dates, but now doesn't get 2 week advance booking pricing. I'd offer to pay for my fuck up but I don't have the cash. I'm sure I'll pay for it in other ways. Woops! Sometimes your brain falls out and you wonder what happened. I'll write about the concert later or tomorrow...I'm going to go suck up more

Strangers can kiss my ass!

I'm of course reading the new Harry P book. However this does not make us friends...Does not give you a conversational piece...Does not make us have something in common. People whom I never talk to, like to walk up and say "so you're reading the new Harry Potter book hey?" Do you really need to state the obvious as some lame opener to interrupt my reading. No I'm just staring blankly at the pages hoping that people like yourself will come up and ask me about it. Jesus people annoy me. If I were to lug around a book to make it look like I'm reading it but not actually reading it...I'd pick something that would make me look a little smarter then Harry Potter fuck off. I'm so glad I don't take transit anymore. I had someone approach me daily trying to talk about something.

Do people actually meet that way really? Are there couples out there that are telling their first meeting story....Well he approached me and asked me about the book I was reading and we fell in love. I hate the people who ask you..What book are you reading then actually move the book to read the title. Excuse me..Don't touch my shit. What are you hoping to accomplish. The two things that can occur ..1. They say hmm...What's it about? If they've never read it A) I don't want to stop my reading to explain something you're feigning interest in B) I'm reading do you MIND!! Or 2. They've actually read the book and decide to voice their opinion on it, sometimes actually ruining the ending by the occasional slip. Or they'll ask you are you at the part yet that blah blah blah occurred...If you're not at said part they then say...Oh it's a good part. Thank you tips please leave now before I kill you, I did not ask for you opinion! I'm done my rant

We always say it...who's with me?

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Third Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Very High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very High
Level 7 (Violent)	High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Moderate

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Matt Good

This week has taken freakin forever. Yesterday i worked my first double shit. It wasn't bad. I had a two hour break in between which helps. All in a row I wouldnt want to sit by me thats for sure. I'll definetly do more OT in the morning. Done by noon was sweet. The morning part blows, I havn't had to be up before 8am for over a year, I've STAYED up till that time but never gotten up.

Going to see Matthew Good on Thursday. Chris, Kandace, Potter, Julie and I are driving down to Edmonton. I've never seen him live I'm excited. Why isn't it Thursday right now damnit. NIN is also coming to town. Id give my left nut for tickets...oh wait, I may have sacrificed those for something else awhile back...I guess I'll start offering my boobs. I'd give my left Tit to get a ticket. Parents come back tonight or tomorrow morning BOOOOOO. Made me realize I have to get a move on I need to get out on my own again. Anyhow I'm at work and should probably go do some...back to the slave mines

Alone at last

I LOVE LOVE being alone in the house. I forgot how nice it was. I've only lived at home like 5 months and it feels a life time ago that I was with Tim and living on my own. Funny how fast life can change things up. I've been doing the exact same things as I would normally if I wasn't alone...But that's not the point. The fact that I don't have to think about anyone but myself is sweet. I think my stereos have all been cranked in one area of the house or another. I forgot how loud the upstairs one can get considering they NEVER use it. I can also do everything I used to do only.....Naked!! Not that I have been...But it's nice to know that it's an option open to me. Long long showers are also a bonus.

My day yesterday was boring due to rafting being cancelled. It said it was going to be 31celsius. My fuckin ass....It was raining. My only day off and it was cloudy all day, it was warm out..But still! Low and behold however I wake up today and it's fuckin sunny as shit...Someone knew I had to work today. If I had my regular Saturday off it would have been pouring out guaranteed...Bitches! So yah I spent my day on the computer. I played Neo-pets. I don't really understand the actual pet part of it. Its like you make an animal or something and play games to earn points to feed it and buy it shit. Tana signed up and I just play all the games. It's better then yahoo because it has like 400 games to play. Yah I'm a geek but whatever I've come to terms with it. Shutup...

Then we had a "couples" night. Tana & Riley, Aj & Jim and Myself and Chris had a BBQ, and a fire outside. I was in charge of bread...The only inedible part of the meal was the bread. Who knew you couldn't broil bread for 15 mins? I blame everyone else. I can't cook worth shit, I don't know what I'm doing, don't put me in charge of anything. Unless there's directions on a box/can I'm lost, even then sometimes I can fuck it up. However I can bake suprisingly well....Like that does me any good. When I have kids their living off of macaroni, scrambled eggs, and cookies cause that's about all I got. Riley actually didn't end up showing up because he was to tired or some shit. Oh well. Tana tried to make a real martini...Nastiest shit I've smelled let alone taken a sip of. Needless to say she was loaded and actually spent half the night attempting to play tetris. The rest of us drank but no drunkenness really occurred. Was a good night actually.

Anyhow I'm off to sleep, I'm turning off my phones because every day this week I've been woken by someone calling. So to bad if you need me to do you a favor call someone else I'm sleeping in. My goal is to sleep in till at least 11am.

Sweet internet

Sweet I got the internet at work. I don't know why it changed suddenly. They must have changed my setting I'm not going to argue though. My parents are gone for a week. Things is looking up. I'm hoping it's nice on Friday because I want to go rafting...Please let it be nice. I'm on OT today. I don't know why they needed people in for OT when it's slow as shit. Oh well more money for me. Chris crashed at my house last night, my cat was concerned. He had no place to sleep he kept jumping up and staring down Chris as if to say WTF? I finally kicked him outside at 5 am because he was annoying me. Chris also set up my downstairs with surround sound, fuckin sweet. Maybe now I'll watch more movies or at least some DVD's i've borrowed and had in my possession for months and months. Anyhooo I really have nothing to say and I don't feel comfortable on the internet at work, constantly concerned you'll get in shit. See you bitches, I really just wanted to express my joy at getting online

Don't forget..And remember blah blah

I was woken up by my mother jumping on me. Then she proceeded to rock while on me at 9:20am this morning. She's talking a mile a minute and I only heard every other word attempting to separate dream from reality still. Someone shot her up with caffeine and sugar and riled her up and gave her nothing to do..so she's saying I'm bored..I've been up for hours entertain me. I've had 3 yr olds jump on me with less enthusiasm. She's spitting so much information at me I actually tuned her out after about 30 seconds. "Remember to fill the water bowl out side..Those little guys drink a lot...Remember to brush them, remember to water the side plants outside..Don't soak them, call grandma on Thursday she's moving today so she'll need someone to talk too" on and on it went for 3o minutes then the has the BALLS to say...Want to come to safeway with me..I'm like no..I'm not moving..Ok then you can go back to sleep I'll be back in an hour. Who can sleep after that?

I'm still tired and I've had breakfast and caught up on Big Brother I want to just crawl back under the covers and sleep for 3 more hours..That's not too much to ask. She's still running around the house popping in and out of rooms looking around for things she's forgotten, yelling phone #'s for me to call and giving more and more instructions. Your not leaving me forever it's a week. I lived out of the house for years when did I turn 15 again? Will parents ever treat you the age you are? Doubtful...I'm going to force some coffee in me or I won't make it through work

Sleeeeepy

Thursday night I got drunk at Manhattan's the music was awesome, and really...I can actually sit and not drink at all with no one around and just listen to music and be fine. However thanks to the people that showed. They brought in a new punch bag machine..Where it measures how hard you punch and gives you a rating. I've never seen such testosterone. 5 or 6 guys standing around paying $1 a punch to prove who's stronger. Some were practically taking a run at the bag before punching it so hard they almost run into the wall, or punch the bank machine near it. Really....Are you that insecure about your masculinity that you have to punch it over and over to beat the high score. I understand punching it maybe twice to see where you rate, but to sink like $10 and get almost the same score each time it retarded. I think I need balls to understand shit like that.

Friday we went rafting you can read Jess's blog for that escapade. I was so so tired and STARVING afterwards it was retarded. I actually had trouble eating because I was exhausted, I don't know what the deal was. I was out cold before midnight. I actually didn't drink at all really. I had like 1/2 a mickey the first trip and nothing the second trip. Tana was PISSED at me that I didn't spend the day just the two of us. It seems everyone is always mad that I don't spend enough time with them. Now they all blame Chris. Oh you spend so much time with Chris now...blah blah. Fuck off. I sleep over there a lot yes. However he doesn't get off work till midnight so I literally go over there to sleep. We play some video games not even an hour and pass out. And because every seems to be so uppity about it I feel guilty about not sleeping at my own house more often, just so no one is pissed I'm not even-ing out my time or some shit. How sad is it that? Especially my parents, my mom is upset about my fish not being taken care of...They get fed chill. Anyways I'm going to spend more time at home the next week. Then the following week their off to Vegas so I'm spending all week at home.

I love video games however. Seriously it's like free entertainment. I need to spend more time with cheap entertainment. I'm so fuckin poor right now it's sick. I've decided my life is now rafting which is free now that I own a raft, best $25 I ever spent I've concluded...And playing video games. Fuck going out. Fuck everyone one! Maybe no one will get one on one time anymore, just group outings then all I have to hear about is how I never invite them anywhere. Maybe I just need to sink $10 into that punching bag machine thing and let out some frustrations.

Stampede day

I woke up this morning awesome. Again spent the night at Chris's. Sorry whatever it's nice to sleep with someone geez! So yah I called Jay& Chris& Trista to see what time they wanted to get a move on. We ended up meeting at my place at 1pm. We all hadn't eaten so yet again out to a restaurant. I'm actually tired of restaurant food. Chris paid for me, they actually all pitched in and paid my entrance in and both movies this week too...Still I managed to spend all the money I had..I'm amazing.

We get in and it's packed...to be expected. It was so fuckin hot out. Nothing worse then being surrounded by 100,000 people in sweltering heat. My god some of these people should not be allowed in public. I love making fun of people though. I'm a bitch what can I say. There is satisfaction in picking apart others. Stampede everyone's brains fall out I think. Seriously..It's not fuckin Halloween people! Not EVERYTHING is acceptable *shudder*.

We got a wrist band for rides..$35. Doesn't seem like a lot for unlimited rides..However if you factor in the time you wait in line and how many actual rides you get. Its like $6 per ride. Or in my case it was. We went on one ride and then it was 3:30pm we went to the super dogs. For those of you have been once before, there's no need to go again. Its the same dogs..The same act..The same host, a badly dressed old dude whom you spend the entire hour telepathically sending messages to all the dogs "attack...attack" or at least I was. I was booored. I love dogs and I was even bored. When we got back outside it had rained and it was windy out. Good day to be wearing a halter top and shorts, I froze my balls off. We wait in line for a few more rides attempting to get our moneys worth but the lines are SO long. Maybe I'm old. I think I may have out grown rides...nah I've out grown the patience I once had for people.

So yah 6pm and we're ready to go home how sad are we. I made a stop for mini donuts and all was right again in the world. It wasn't a bad time I'm just hoping I can talk Tana out of going on Friday. I do NOT want to go again. I'd rather drink on my deck...I'll work on pushing that plan. I'm going out Thursday night to Manhattans...You're all invited. It's kind of a combo party. Chris's drinking party and Sean's operation kill smiley. Then it's rafting in the morning with Tyler,Jess,Kandace and who knows who else. The plan is after rafting to go to the Stampede with Tana..But I'm persuasive. We'll see...

I hate the Stampede

What a joke. I hate the tourists, I hate the traffic, I hate the crowds, I hate the cowboys. I despise almost every part of the stampede, with the exception of some of the rides and of course the mini donuts. I get embarrassed that tourists flood the city and some might actually believe that we're all fuckin cowboys. However at least there are scores of hot girls in tiny jean skirts and dressed up like whores running around, that's a bonus. I cant stand the fake wood they put up everywhere too. Fuckin posts and fences and random hay piles scattered here and there it's retarded. I have to leave early for work because the traffic...boo-urns to the Stamede. K I'm done.

Today is Chris's b-day I spent the morning with him till he went to work at 4pm. Now is scouring my brain for ideas of where to take Jason, Chris & Trista. If anyone has any ideas..Besides the movies or Stampede. I've been to a movie with them already, as well I plan on going to the Stampede Wednesday with them. What else is there to do in this city with guys who don't really drink? I'd say Zoo but its too late in the day for that. Damn this boring city!!

I'm never home geez

You know how the "honey moon" stage is. You like to hang out with eachother a lot. I spend a lot of nights at Chris's place so yes I have been neglecting my blog sorry. I've been running around today trying to help Chris out as well as get some of my own shit done. I'm looking forward to Techno in the dark tonight. I get to be security...Sweet fondling women...Or I mean "frisking them". I don't see the point of this really. Most chicks would keep drugs etc in their cleavage. Not like you can actually cup their boobs or look between them, so really you're just doing it because it's supposed to be done. Not to say that I wont cop a feel here and there....erm I mean. I'm going to try to stay up as late as possible. I know I won't make it to the end, especially if I can't get loaded. Partying sober can be fun..But not till 6am or later.

Tomorrow I'm working some ot then I'm supposed to go to a movie with Slater. I hadn't heard from him in awhile. Then out of the blue he asks..Want to go to a movie some time? I never thought of it till later because I'm slow, but that sounds to me like a date. We're not good friends. He's fuckin hilarious and we did work together, but since we stopped working together, I've seen him maybe 4 times in a year. Never alone either...hmmm suspicious. I'll still go though because I'd like to hang out with him more. Not that I have that much time to fit more friends in, but whatever. I'm blunt I'll let him know the scoop.

I got my GST cheque which is bitchin I can go to the stampede maybe twice now. I have a ride day with Tana. Usually it's just the two of us all fuckin day in the sweltering heat from morning till close doing nothing but rides. I still haven't talked to Jason & Chris they will be in on the 10th. I have Monday, Wednesday off this week with no money either days. I'll figure it out I always manage. Any how I have to jump in the shower before my parental unit comes home and accuses me of using my house like a hotel (I totally do but fuck whatever you get rent). I have 30 minutes to escape before he gets in. Hope to see you bitches at the rave tonight.

PS...I love love love Big brother. So thats what the next 3 months of my life will revolve around. I'm allowed to have one show that I watch. I watch so little TV I deserve a show obsession.

My Nemesis!!!

Here are my pics of the thorn in my side. I hate it more each hour that I piss away on it. This will be my last thing I paint for anyone, who I haven't already prior agreed to do something for that is. I'm only painting things I enjoy or find interesting. T you're a lucky girl. You have probably received the last painting I will ever do for anyone. Though I like doing things for people who aren't expecting them. It's almost impossible because as you can see it's not smooth even when painted on up close it looks good then you take a step back and it's fucked up. Combined with Tana's help maybe 20 or so hours left not 100 I exaggerate I know. But still booo-urns to painting on bumpy shit.

Anyway I'm off to the gym for the first time in days and days. I woke up to yelling for ten minutes before my eyes were even open. I even told my mom to fuck off because I'd had enough, and I'm never like that. So let me tell you I'm in a fabulous fuckin mood today be warned co-workers

I've been busy sue me

So I'm going to do a quick 5 minute catch up entry because I'm on my way out the door. Thursday night I was ditched for the assembly of Ikea furniture. (I'm still wounded T) I was GOING to go to a movie but noooo. I get a last minute text message. I didn't mind but I can still give T a hard time. I went out with Sabrina and Jim and met Jim's friend JD. We were going to go to Manhattan's but it was closed...I still don't know why. We went to Sambuca for a bit anyways. $1 high balls. I didn't want to spend that much money, so after we drank them Sabby was ready to go dance and I was sleepy and ready to crash. I went home with Chris. Jim, JD and Chris played records it was good times. Friday I spent the day with Jim. We went to my place and lounged around on my deck...Well he lounged, I painted. I've suffered weeks of When are you going to paint? Are you painting? When can you paint? Are you home to paint? You have 20 mins till you go to work...Why aren't you painting? I'm going crazy.

So Jim visited my parents in the sun. While I sat in the garage and fuckin painted. Weeeeeak. Whatever I only have maybe 100 fuckin hours left on the damn thing. I took pictures I'll post them when I'm not rushing. I cleaned my car too and then chilled at Chris & Jim's place and watched DVD's ate wings. Then Chris played at CJSW from 1am till 3am. I'm a sucker and actually went to get him. I was entertained by drunk Jess calling me and venting, I liked it actually. I like that she can call me and feels comfortable enough to vent her personal life to me. We're "bonding" on the floor now hehe.

Yah today I was "Ben" on the floor. I worked 1pm till 9pm. It went by really really slow. I've spent the night at Chris's Wed, thurs, Fri and tonight I'm going over there. It's safe to say I've applied the boyfriend title to him. He makes me happy so whatever. My parents were so fuckin drunk and giving me a hard time Friday on the deck. Even Jim said they were hard on me. We have a game plan to introduce Chris to them. They adore Jim blah blah Jim & AJ should come to Vegas with us..You can stay home daughter. Then my dad like poked my stomach and was like...Getting a little fat there pumpkin..Your 24 you're too young to have that gut. Ouch. I'm actually used to it. He's not even aware that someone might be sensitive to that. No wonder I'm so self conscious about it..Oh wait..I don't give a fuck that's right. I have been eating badly and havn't been to the gym in like 6 days. Anyways I'm gonna grab some work clothes for tomorrow and I'm out of here. *smoochies* Sorry for ditching out Friday night. I just didn't want to spend money, and if I was drinking I was way in the north so I wouldn't' have been able to drive home. Sorry guys. Next time Tyler has a gig I promise I'll come party.